Monday, August 22, 2011

I wonder what is people's opinion of me after you strip down all the layers...?

Am i too random...? Too Perky...? Too Serious...? I don't know... so what makes me well just me...?

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {11:56 AM}
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Thursday, August 11, 2011

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS WRONG WITH ME... WHY I KEEP BEING SO MOODY AND SWAYING ON MY EMOTIONS LATELY!!!

Omg i really really really don't know what the hell is up with me and my freaking mind now... i feel so confused so lost and so lonely... Confusing thoughts fill my head i have damn crap exams coming up. I still need to settle an internship placement...

FK it!!! Screw it !!! Lapses into babble of colourful words... @#%^#*I(%$*$%#&$#Q^@$#%$*IK$T^I*$#^@^@#$*%#

This is crazy... of all the people i could have felt attracted to.... WHY HIM!!! Why of all the freaking suicidal mind crazy boggling thoughts my boss.... Keeping it in doesn't really quite help... Neither is confiding it in frens.... I just bloody wish it wasn't so... Yes he's nice and quite kind ... but i still don't know him... I should not even be thinking of it this way... especially when i'm already attached to one of the nicest and most awesome guy i could have ever wished for.

Second... I'm really becoming attached to this working environment and liking it too much... To leave it now is something i really can't imagine right now... But then i'm still schooling... Sighs... i feel like im the crazy maniac trying to play with time and hoping i won't break the fragile glass of time.

School.... Sighs i really don't know... Where do i want to go after this? Why can't i muster up enough inspiration to follow what i chose...? Why does it feel like right now my path is divided up into so many different roads i don't know what to do or where to go? Which to choose to follow to what i want?

Then again WHAT DO I TRULY WANT...? WHAT IS MY PURPOSE IN LIFE...?

Even now why is there still that lack of purpose... like facing the mirror's of the various point's in my life and asking... which one is me...?

I just hope somehow by writing this all out... it'll at least ease some small portion of my soul....



Something too enjoy if my post sounds too furious and emotional wrecked...

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {9:38 AM}
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Monday, July 19, 2010

hahaha a long post in a long time... a week to 19 hahaha yet it doesnt seem tat joyful... for starters things in my life in doesnt look bright... and im not sure.. did i lose a close best friend ? i cant tell... we havent spoken in awhile but im hoping not. i don't want to lose him.. i don't want to feel tat loneliness... and i wish home also didnt feel so tensed up like it's gonna explode and break apart.. i wonder how this week will even turn out...

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {4:47 AM}
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Thursday, March 04, 2010

When all esle is gone... who's waiting at the end of the road? Who's the special someone to give u hope...?

When you're impatient for memories to fade... what will it take?

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {9:13 AM}
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

i wonder... how much more of me do i have...? and how much more can i take....

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {12:37 AM}
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

OMG I REALLY GOT IN... IM SHORTLISTED FOR THE AIRFORCE SCHOLORSHIP FOR SENIOR TECHNICIAN... this was really unexpected... i still can't believe it... im happy nervous and also scared that i won't match up to the standards... the air force is really an elite class and i can't believe that i've been chosed... There's so many expectations to meet.. personality... health... mentality.. aims... >.< feels really scared bout the next step but all i can't really do is try right ?.... I wonder is this where my future will lead to...

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {3:32 AM}
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Wednesday, October 07, 2009

When an emotional injury takes place,
the body begins a process
as natural as the healing
of a physical wound.

Let the process happen
Trust that nature
will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,
and, when it passes,
you will be stronger,
happier, more sensitive and aware.

Mel Colgrove from how to survive the loss of a love
Taken from Chicken Soup for the teenage soul

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {4:31 AM}
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