Tuesday, October 13, 2009

OMG I REALLY GOT IN... IM SHORTLISTED FOR THE AIRFORCE SCHOLORSHIP FOR SENIOR TECHNICIAN... this was really unexpected... i still can't believe it... im happy nervous and also scared that i won't match up to the standards... the air force is really an elite class and i can't believe that i've been chosed... There's so many expectations to meet.. personality... health... mentality.. aims... >.< feels really scared bout the next step but all i can't really do is try right ?.... I wonder is this where my future will lead to...

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {3:32 AM}
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Wednesday, October 07, 2009

When an emotional injury takes place,
the body begins a process
as natural as the healing
of a physical wound.

Let the process happen
Trust that nature
will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,
and, when it passes,
you will be stronger,
happier, more sensitive and aware.

Mel Colgrove from how to survive the loss of a love
Taken from Chicken Soup for the teenage soul

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {4:31 AM}
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Tuesday, October 06, 2009

I just kept falling into the empty darkness... lost alone and confused
Till u came like and angel
And made me smile
Become my sun
Why don't u just let me grab your hand and bring you to tat one special place?
The place that only u can fill.... or would u rather stay and simply cry sulk and die?
Won’t u let me hold your hand? Let me in? Let me fill that dark emptiness and sorrow.

Won’t u let me stop?
Let me stay by you.
So I won’t have to watch u cry sulk and die…

i'm sleepy, tired and so sick of the world?
the craziness within it
all driving my mind out?
work keeps piling and time runs short?
my mind feels so strained i really dunno where i'm going?
feel so lost and alone drowning in the dark?
Is there anything we can do to stop the madness?
Are we the only sane ones left?
are we really meant to be this lonely?
Did we follow the right path or did we mess up on the way?
just where did we lose it all?
it's just so much easier to let myself cry sulk and die away

i feel so tired... things arn't following what i want...
just want it all to end
just want to stop the pain
just make it go away...
i'm sleepy, tired and so sick of the world?
the craziness within it
all driving my mind out?
the world's running a conspiracy just to fool me?
it's a plan, a plan to fool me. a plan to bring me down to my knees and bleed away?
the world can just be so crazy sometimes?
i just wanna cry sulk and die? leave me alone sitting in the dark?

Then you say...
Can't you see it all? All that I've done for you?
All the times I've stayed by your side
Did everything for you? Bled for you ?
So make a choice, make it now?
Wanna come with me or stay and Cry Sulk and Die?

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {5:43 PM}
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Monday, October 05, 2009

nooooooooooooooo sch reopen le... wad am i gonna do... siighs...

FairyTales are beautiful lies ; {5:31 PM}
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