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What do you think...?

2011-08-22T11:56:00.001-07:00

I wonder what is people's opinion of me after you strip down all the layers...?

Am i too random...? Too Perky...? Too Serious...? I don't know... so what makes me well just me...?

I need to yell to somehow clear out all that confusion right now!!!

2011-08-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS WRONG WITH ME... WHY I KEEP BEING SO MOODY AND SWAYING ON MY EMOTIONS LATELY!!!

Omg i really really really don't know what the hell is up with me and my freaking mind now... i feel so confused so lost and so lonely... Confusing thoughts fill my head i have damn crap exams coming up. I still need to settle an internship placement...

FK it!!! Screw it !!! Lapses into babble of colourful words... @#%^#*I(%$*$%#&$#Q^@$#%$*IK$T^I*$#^@^@#$*%#

This is crazy... of all the people i could have felt attracted to.... WHY HIM!!! Why of all the freaking suicidal mind crazy boggling thoughts my boss.... Keeping it in doesn't really quite help... Neither is confiding it in frens.... I just bloody wish it wasn't so... Yes he's nice and quite kind ... but i still don't know him... I should not even be thinking of it this way... especially when i'm already attached to one of the nicest and most awesome guy i could have ever wished for.

Second... I'm really becoming attached to this working environment and liking it too much... To leave it now is something i really can't imagine right now... But then i'm still schooling... Sighs... i feel like im the crazy maniac trying to play with time and hoping i won't break the fragile glass of time.

School.... Sighs i really don't know... Where do i want to go after this? Why can't i muster up enough inspiration to follow what i chose...? Why does it feel like right now my path is divided up into so many different roads i don't know what to do or where to go? Which to choose to follow to what i want?

Then again WHAT DO I TRULY WANT...? WHAT IS MY PURPOSE IN LIFE...?

Even now why is there still that lack of purpose... like facing the mirror's of the various point's in my life and asking... which one is me...?

I just hope somehow by writing this all out... it'll at least ease some small portion of my soul....

Something too enjoy if my post sounds too furious and emotional wrecked...

thoughts

2010-07-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

hahaha a long post in a long time... a week to 19 hahaha yet it doesnt seem tat joyful... for starters things in my life in doesnt look bright... and im not sure.. did i lose a close best friend ? i cant tell... we havent spoken in awhile but im hoping not. i don't want to lose him.. i don't want to feel tat loneliness... and i wish home also didnt feel so tensed up like it's gonna explode and break apart.. i wonder how this week will even turn out...

quote

2010-03-04T09:13:00.000-08:00

When all esle is gone... who's waiting at the end of the road? Who's the special someone to give u hope...?

When you're impatient for memories to fade... what will it take?

how much do i have left...?

2009-11-18T00:37:00.001-08:00

i wonder... how much more of me do i have...? and how much more can i take....

Unexpected

2009-10-13T03:32:00.000-07:00

OMG I REALLY GOT IN... IM SHORTLISTED FOR THE AIRFORCE SCHOLORSHIP FOR SENIOR TECHNICIAN... this was really unexpected... i still can't believe it... im happy nervous and also scared that i won't match up to the standards... the air force is really an elite class and i can't believe that i've been chosed... There's so many expectations to meet.. personality... health... mentality.. aims... >.< feels really scared bout the next step but all i can't really do is try right ?.... I wonder is this where my future will lead to...

Hurt...

2009-10-07T04:31:00.000-07:00

When an emotional injury takes place,
the body begins a process
as natural as the healing
of a physical wound.

Let the process happen
Trust that nature
will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,
and, when it passes,
you will be stronger,
happier, more sensitive and aware.

Mel Colgrove from how to survive the loss of a love
Taken from Chicken Soup for the teenage soul

Cry Sulk and Die

2009-10-06T17:43:00.001-07:00

I just kept falling into the empty darkness... lost alone and confused
Till u came like and angel
And made me smile
Become my sun
Why don't u just let me grab your hand and bring you to tat one special place?
The place that only u can fill.... or would u rather stay and simply cry sulk and die?
Won’t u let me hold your hand? Let me in? Let me fill that dark emptiness and sorrow.

Won’t u let me stop?
Let me stay by you.
So I won’t have to watch u cry sulk and die…

i'm sleepy, tired and so sick of the world?
the craziness within it
all driving my mind out?
work keeps piling and time runs short?
my mind feels so strained i really dunno where i'm going?
feel so lost and alone drowning in the dark?
Is there anything we can do to stop the madness?
Are we the only sane ones left?
are we really meant to be this lonely?
Did we follow the right path or did we mess up on the way?
just where did we lose it all?
it's just so much easier to let myself cry sulk and die away

i feel so tired... things arn't following what i want...
just want it all to end
just want to stop the pain
just make it go away...
i'm sleepy, tired and so sick of the world?
the craziness within it
all driving my mind out?
the world's running a conspiracy just to fool me?
it's a plan, a plan to fool me. a plan to bring me down to my knees and bleed away?
the world can just be so crazy sometimes?
i just wanna cry sulk and die? leave me alone sitting in the dark?

Then you say...
Can't you see it all? All that I've done for you?
All the times I've stayed by your side
Did everything for you? Bled for you ?
So make a choice, make it now?
Wanna come with me or stay and Cry Sulk and Die?

sch reopen

2009-10-05T17:31:00.001-07:00

nooooooooooooooo sch reopen le... wad am i gonna do... siighs...

find the way

2009-09-16T06:20:00.000-07:00

stuff seems hazy but maybe just maybe there might be a way....

awake...

2009-09-04T11:37:00.000-07:00

tee hee 2.37am and i am stilll awake in jcig camp

......

2009-09-04T00:12:00.000-07:00

Lost... confused... and i have no idea where is the path i'm following again...

Sea gazing

2009-08-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

Staring at the sea at east coast park makes me feel alot like the sea and yet also quite confused and yet also strangely peaceful... Cause when i look at the sea i feel like on top it looks calm and peaceful yet inside it's quite a jumble of mess... deep inside and hard to tell... and yeah looking at it enojoying the sea breeze it looks so calm and collected at the same time.... ever flowing never stopping...

Hectic

2009-08-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

*sighs* finally UT is over... it has been really hectic for me... on a constant roller coaster of ups and downs.... Late night sleeping... brain meltdown + crash.... and my emotional state of mind being very unstable and feeling very stressed up.... Thks to Kay and Niz who helped me mug for my science and maths... (tat is if kay sees this post this goes to you) It hasn't been an easy ride for me... Ask the friends around me when i studied... i was like uber crazy... Very close to overstressing myself to the point of breaking.... Worried so much for my UTs. One hectic ride + i had work which was to prepare my student for his exams... I dozed off quite a few times in the day during tat period... and just right before my studying of my UTs emotions and *......* was being very hard on me... it was so hard to focus and i was thinking bad stuff again... Anyway all those over already... however new problems will come eventually... one of them will be fitting in again with my new sem2 class.... for now enjoy the hols and grind like mad on latale... XDDD

tired...

2009-08-20T02:02:00.000-07:00

Getting tired... really really mentally tired....

Sem 1 ending

2009-08-16T01:09:00.000-07:00

Sem 1 is ending... i wonder will things be as turbulent as they are in sem 2? haiz...

Confused

2009-08-05T18:15:00.000-07:00

Confused really really confused and i do not know what is the path i'm taking anymore >.<

Lucky yet unlucky ~.~

2009-08-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

Haiz today was such a weird day XD... I lost my wallet which contains my nric (identity card), hse keys and atm card and i missed the national day preview. On the other hand i saw the president car drive past, saw the planes fly pass and saw the helicopters carrying the nationaly day flag live. Weird aint it... haiz...

Suspected...

2009-07-27T17:56:00.000-07:00

Things were as i suspected but it doesn't mean that a person still won't get shaken by the news. Suspecting it and really confirming it is two different matter and that im still kinda shaken a little at the news...

i just dun noe

2009-07-22T22:35:00.000-07:00

i just really cant tell it why.... why im feeling this why. why i am so down so depressed. i cant identify the cause of it... and it makes me really really bothered cuz i cant identify it i cant seem to voice it out no matter how much soul searching or brooding or thinking i do... what is the problem with me????

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.
~author unknown~

..................

2009-07-20T17:24:00.000-07:00

I can't really say it for sure but somehow i feel like i'm slipping losing it again. Grasping elusive threads for an answer... Maybe it's because of how events has been recently... Or maybe it's just cuz i havent found my reason. A reason to continue to pursue and dream. Who am i? Im so confused... Somehow i can sense that because of my ability to do anything for a person i care about i end up losing out maybe? i don't know... So confused....Its making me so moody and im trying to deal with it and not be so moody...

cough

2009-07-19T19:59:00.001-07:00

no fever anymore.... but still having cough.....

sick 2 >.<

2009-07-17T04:08:00.000-07:00

silly fever of mine one min there is no fever and the nxt fever again... ><

sick >.<

2009-07-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

why this kind of timing sick???? i'm in class typing blog coughing head feels like splitting open and shivering cold like siao feel so miserable... then still have to tahan until maths exam over... i cant wait to get home and into bed

>.<

2009-07-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

i don't know... all of a sudden i feel so heavy again.... like buried under something i can't tell... and my moods are getting terribly erratic again.... i'm lashing out way too easily at the smallest reason... Maybe it's the pressure of exams ? i don't know... All i get is a very bad feeling tat something bad will happen... i don't know why >.< Prob just me and my whacked out sense of feeling... i lashed out twice in a week.... what's wrong with me?? why do i have a nagging sense that things are gonna get worse...

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?
~Stephen Levine~

Lash out...

2009-07-07T18:44:00.001-07:00

I shouldnt have lashed out... so so sorry....

healing

2009-07-05T04:26:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why but on a spur of moment i suddenly asked my mum to get me chicken soup teen talk tough times.... i wonder why i did that

so long....... okay not so long ><

2009-07-02T05:32:00.000-07:00

haiz.... i seem to be digging out old stuff... personal stuff and i guess it wouldnt kill to share the one serious attempt at expressing my emotions at that time...

Unhealable scar,
Swaying in solitude and anxiety.
I’m going away from my existence.

Deep despair attacks me.
In the darkness of the night,
Depressing my heart.

Nobody knows who I really am
Nothing is going the way it should
Shivering and in tears, I repress all my regret
I surrendered myself to a dismal emptiness
In the most critical of times
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach

With my heart locked away
I don a cold demeanor and a mask
Who knows
My honest face?

The more we live, the more we lose.
Even so, I don’t want to throw away my dreams of tomorrow.
And even if sadness is the reason,
I want to hold you tight.

In a time where streets, people and dreams change,
I could only oppose them.
I still did not realise,
That there are things that can’t be conveyed even with words...

I’ve chosen a path that can never be easy,
No matter what I do.
Not being able to brush off the smears of sands from my shoe.
There’s no other way in which I can live
If it were you,
You’d surely be in the laughter of summer.

Even now, you still haven’t noticed this quiet sky,
I’m always thinking of it,
But I can no longer return there.

My flawed heart still embraces the night, even as it burns out.
The light again falls through the sky,
Sacrificing it’s warmth only for hope.

If you closed your eyes, you won’t gaze into sadness.
If you forget the feeling of warmth, you won’t feel pain.

Why do you with your small hands,
Try to carry all these wounds on your back?
Why am I while hesitating unable to escape?
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?
The form of this heart and this path changes.
But there is a wish that never disappears.

The night is wavering in the water.
The greening shore is so still and silent.
That it is so painful.

A little ship glitters silently alone.
Swept away by a torrent of grief,
It disappears under the waves of my heart.
Why do I search the ocean depths aimlessly,
For the warmth I should not have known.

To have an unbroken dream,
Is to be fighting with oneself.
In these hands of mine is nothing but solitude

My teardrops remain hidden as they are.
I outline the looking glass.
To you, I am your darkened sadness.

In this quiet night,
I’m waiting for you.
During that time, your smile has faded away,
From when my smile has faded this much,
Since it was shattered by one mistake.
At the place where the stars fall,
I’m always wishing for your laughter.
Because I believe in this desolate winter sky...

its like a mixture of well erm songs tat i found pretty meaningful... and about songs i recently found one song i really thought expressed it.... in someways u can say its a bit like me...

Song: AgainArtist: YUIAlbum: AgainOther: Opening song for the anime Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood
yume no tsudzukioi kaketeita hazu nano ni
I should have been chasing the continuation of my dream,

magarikunetta hosoimichi hito ni tsumazuku
but I got distracted by the peopleon this thin road that took a sharp turn.

ano koro mitai ni tte modoritai wake janai no
It’s not that I want to go back to the days of back then,

nakushitekita sora wo sagashiteru
I’m just searchingf or the sky I’ve lost…

wakattekuremasu youni
Please understand.

gisei ni natta youna kanashii kao ha yamete yo
It seem I’ve become the victim,so stop showing that sad face…

tsumi no saigo ha namida janai yo zutto kurushiku sei makettekunda
Tears are not the end of crime…they’re the painful shape of losing…

deguchi mienai kansei meiro ni dare wo matteru no?
I can’t see the exit of this sensitive maze,who am I wating for?

shiroi NO-TO ni tsudzutta youni motto suano ni hikidashitai yo
I write it down in my blank notebook,I want to bring out my honest self.

nani kara nigaretainda
What was I running from?

…genjittsu tte yatsu?
…from reality?

kanaeru tame ni ikiterundatte
To make my wish come true,I’ll contine living,

wasurechai souna yoru no mannaka
to not forget,within the center of the night,

bunan ni nante yatte rarenai kara
I won’t make a place to escape.

…kaeru basho mo nai no
…There isn’t a place to go back to…

kono omoi wo keshiteshimau ni ha mada jinsei nagai deshou?
I’ll erase this feeling…I still have a long life don’t I?

natsukashiku naru konna itami mo kangeijan
I’m missing the feeling…so this pain is also welcomed!

ayamaranakucha ikenai yo ne ah GOMEN ne
I must apologize…Aa, I’m sorry…

umaku ienakute shinpai kaketa mama datta ne
I can’t say it correctly,I’ve always made you worry haven’t I?

ano hi kakaeta zenbu ashita kakaeru zenbu
Back then you accepted everything,and in the future, you’ll accept everything.

junban tsuketari ha shinai kara
I won’t makea waiting list…

wakattekuremasu youni
Please understand.

sotto me wo tojitanda mitakunai mono mademiendamon
I gently closed my eyes until I couldn’t see the things I didn’t want to see.

iranai UWASA ni chotto hajimete kiku hatsugen docchi?
From the useless rumors,which one was it that I heard of first?

nikai attara tomodachi da tte?USO ha yamete ne
“We were friends after the 2nd meeting”??Stop lying…

akai HA-TO ga iradatsu youni karadannaka moeteirunda
My red heart irritated me,it burned up my whole body.

HONTO hakitai shitenno
Truth is…I had some hope…

…genjitsu tte yatsu?
…from reality?

kanaeru tame ni ikiterundatte
To make my wish come true,I’ll contine living,

sakebitaku naru yo kikoeteimasuka?
I want to scream out…can you hear me?

bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
I won’t make a place to escape.

…kaeru basho mo nai no
…There isn’t a place to go back to…

yasashisa ni ha itsumo kansha shiteru dakara tsuyoku naritai
I’m thankful for your tenderness,that’s why I want to be stronger.

susumu tame ni teki mo mikata mo kangeijan
To continue forward,I welcome both enemies and allies.

dou yatte sugi no DOA akerundakke? kangaeteru?
How do I open the next door? Are you thinking of a way?

mou hikikaesenai monogatari hajimatterunda
We can’t go back again,the story has already started.

me wo semase me wo semase
Open your eyes, open your eyes.

kono omoi wo keshiteshimau ni ha mada jinsei nagai desho?
I’ll erase this feeling…I still have a long life don’t I?

yarinokoshiteru KOTO yarinaoshitemitai kara
The thing I left behind once again…I want to try to re-do it once again…

mou ichido yukou
Let’s try once again.

kanaeru tame ni ikiterundatte
To make my wish come true,I’ll contine living,

sakebitakunaru yo kikoetaimasuka?
I want to scream out…can you hear me?

bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
I won’t make a place to escape.

…kaeru basho mo nai no
…There isn’t a place to go back to…

yasashisa ni ha itsumo kansha shiteru dakara tsuyoku naritai
I’m thankful for your tenderness,that’s why I want to be stronger.

natsukashiku naru konna itami mo kangeijan
I’m missing the feeling…so this pain is also welcomed!

i guess seeing the counseller is helping a little but i still have a long way to go on the healing process...

out of it

2009-06-09T21:55:00.000-07:00

so hollow and empty right now... no words to say... haiz.. wads the point after all... out of it all words sometimes really hurts the most.

....

2009-05-27T19:20:00.000-07:00

im ripping myself apart. On one hand a small part of me believes that everything will be alright but yet mostly i cant bring myself. i just feel so unsure. so guilty. regretful. pls stop... just go away.. so much past influenece, present studies, expections. so many things i regretted doing as a kid... so bothered im the cause of dispute not a gd role model. so helpless unable to help so powerless... so unhappy.... too many scars etched on me. y cant i just get anything done right... so restricted... caged up.... so unhappy at myself i hate what i am... go away go away go away why is my voice not heard... am i really so invisible?

WHY????

2009-05-27T00:14:00.000-07:00

i cant get things right, i cant be wad ppl want. i cant even be wad i want. im such a failure, so unable to get things right. falling in a black pit of despair..... why????

STOP IT!!! GO AWAY

2009-05-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

it hurts... it hurts so much... just fade away dissapear get out of my mind.... just want to run away... dun want to see it anymore it hurts too much... too much pain... go away go away go away just go away.... *whimpers and cuddle up*

kanashii

2009-05-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

i really dunno... life is so unpredictable at times. im frustrated and so full of raging emotions... bitterness, hopelessness, kanashii, hurt and many more. so mentally tired. want to run away. dun want to care. i just want to rest. i dun wanna bother bout this stuff anymore.

guilty as charged

2009-05-17T06:02:00.000-07:00

i feel really down. torn in two ways... cant decide. i have no idea wad i want of myself.. wad i expect. what i think.. what i want my life to be. i noe im not suppose to, but i cant help but get depressed and rant... and during a my ranting i think i might have spoiled a friendship... feel really bad bout it.. really guilty really depressed and down... even though im suppose to look ahead and walk on

Meanings 1

2009-05-11T19:52:00.001-07:00

Hmm since im bored i shall post some of my fav songs and tell why i like them... So it will be one song per post...
The one im picking today is Yuna Ito reason why

Reason WhyLyrics: Kaori FukanoMusic: Koichi TsutayaFrom the single I'm Here
Take me back and I'll never let go
Take me back and I'll never look back
Cause you're keeping me strong
Cause you're keeping me alive
You're the reason why, I can't walk away again

*1 Take me back and I'll never leave you
Take me back and I'll never hurt you
I am always by your side
I will be here till the end
Just wait for me, never let you down again

Tick tick tock, and turn back the clock
The Times running out and slipping away
They can't stop me now, I'm moving along
And all I see is the light up ahead

Ring ring ring, and hear the bell ring
Now no turning back and no crying no more
I cross my heart I promise you now
You are not alone believe what I say

Now I see you standing looking out for me
The reflection you look at me in your heart,in my heart forever

*2 Take me back and I'll never let go
Take me back and I'll never look back
Cause you're keeping me strong
Cause you're keeping me alive
You're the reason why, I can't let you go again

*1 repeat

Zig zig zag, I'm losing my way
Lost in emotion, hearts pounding away
Tell me why, I'm falling apart
I need you here, need you right by my side

Click click click, I found my way out
So clear and so bright, It's just waiting for me
Believe what is right, believe in yourself
I'll guide you out, just follow me out

Now I see you standing reaching out to me
Everyday is so special to,only you, just for you forever
*2 repeat

*3 Take me back and I'll never leave you
Take me back and I'll never hurt you
I am always by your side
I will be here till the end
Just wait for me,never let you down again,take me back again

Now I see you standing looking out for me
The reflection you look at me in your heart, in my heart forever

*2 repeat*3 repeat twice

The reason why i liked this song is because i was feeling down and really sucky and this gave me a reason why, to keep on fighting.

change

2009-05-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

Recently i had a good talk with a fren... frm that talk i found again the faintest flicker of hope. I thought bout many things... from it i realised that change was necessary so im trying my best to change now... use my unhealable scars to push myself forward. to motivate myself to look to the future. I will put in my best to try and give myself a more postive outlook and to actually smile and look into the sunlight and walk forward... not easy cuz right now im hanging in the middle... neither here nor there.

personality test

2009-04-21T03:22:00.000-07:00

hmm one of my course required me to take a personality test and out of all of them i think this is the most accurate one so far... so i shall share the lengthy results... or at least part of it...

Portrait of an ISFP - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving(Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Sensing)
The Artist
As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.
ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.
ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.
ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.
ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.
ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.
ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.
The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.
The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Introverted FeelingAuxilliary: Extraverted SensingTertiary: Introverted IntuitionInferior: Extraverted Thinking
ISFP Relationships
ISFPs are warmhearted, gentle people who take their commitments seriously, and seek lifelong relationships. They are very private people, who keep their true feelings and opinions reserved or hidden from others. This may cause them to constantly defer to their mates in their intimate relationships, which may cause problems if their mates are not extremely aware of the ISFP's feelings. Some ISFPs who are in the habit of not expressing their needs and feelings find themselves in situations throughout their life where they feel overshadowed, overlooked, or even "tread upon" by others. Highly practical and cynical by nature, these feelings may cause the ISFP to become bitter, and to either give up on their relationships, or to start using their relationships for their own personal gain. Although this problem is observed sometimes in the ISFP type, it does not seem to be present in those ISFPs who consistently express their feelings to those closest to them. These ISFPs have a very positive, warm outlook on life and love, and are not as likely to find themselves in relationships where they are taken for granted or taken advantage of. ISFPs go to great lengths to please their partners. They're very loyal and supportive, with a deep capacity for love. They detest conflict and discord, and highly value being seen and understood for who they are. They need space to live their lives in their own unique way, and will respect other's need for space.
ISFP Strengths
Warm, friendly and affirming by nature
Usually optimistic
Good listeners
Good at dealing with practical day-to-day concerns
Flexible and laid-back, usually willing to defer to their mates
Their love of aesthetic beauty and appreciation for function makes them likely to have attractive, functional homes
Take their commitments seriously, and seek lifelong relationships
Likely to value and respect other's personal space
Likely to enjoy showing their affection through acts and deeds
Sensuous and earthy
ISFP Weaknesses
Not good at long-range financial (or other) planning
Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism
Focused on enjoying the present moment, they may appear lazy or slow-moving at times
Need to have their own space, and dislike having it invaded
May be slow to show their affection with words
Tendency to hold back their thoughts and feelings, unless drawn out
May become overly cynical and practical

ISFPs as Friends
ISFPs are able to get along with most of the other personality types, although they tend to be reserved around those they don't know well. They will enjoy spending time with others who share their interests, and who understand and accept the ISFP for who they are. They greatly value their space and autonomy, and appreciate other's respect for that.
The ISFP is not likely to have much patience or tolerance for those who are strongly Judging. ISFPs celebrate their own uniqueness, as well as everybody else's, and don't appreciate being judged harshly for their differences.
In work settings, the ISFP is likely to get along with most everyone, unless someone inhabits their space too much, in which case sparks may fly. Generally, the ISFP is kind-hearted and generous with those they care about, and makes a true-blue friend.

yupps and tats my long and lengthy result...

sch

2009-04-16T05:30:00.000-07:00

hmm im in poly now and well i really dunno... y do i simply just prolong it all... i dun noe but maybe its bcuz my frens keep me frm really falling off the edge into dark pitch endless blackness

haiz...

2008-09-25T00:28:00.001-07:00

life is so uncertain ... wad happens when ur torn two ways my heart tells me one and yet my mind tells me another... maybe its better that i wrap myself in four solid concrete walls life is a commodity tat is precious treasure it every moment u have and never let go of your dreams...

haiz stress

2008-03-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

i duno im gettin more n more depressed everytime n yet i duno how ta nip it in e bud som 1 help mi pls...

er i dunno

2008-02-13T22:51:00.000-08:00

haiz target is 4a 4 o lvl i dun even noe if i can reach e target lol all my results from small have never been gd always on e failing egde.... ani way my blog is complete le cum n c it if u want howeva i may not update so reguraly as got sch n im feelin quite depressed so.. yah tats bout it lol...

promo test

2008-01-30T23:40:00.000-08:00

in like few mins time im gona have ta go change so this is lyke so last min any way im working on making e kinks rite so it b up n running e latest soon... pls b patient

o result

2008-01-29T07:38:00.000-08:00

kawaiii i dun believe it i actually passed my o lvls ... though e score was not wad i targetted im happi cuz i passed liaoz yahhh... ^____^ yah ani way i might b going 2 japan at e end of e year BUT not confirm yet cuz im having a major exam. i cried a little while waiting cuz i was so nervous. i have been in e bottom ten 4 lyke 2 years so i was realli freaked out. Examinaton of my primary sch report bk shows tat i tend to start off sch life well n drop lyke crazy when its cuming 2 major exam... any way chinese new year cuming i can hardly wait to get my ang pows... $$$$$$$ [money faced hahaha]

o levels

2007-06-28T19:46:00.000-07:00

man o levels have been so damn it taking its toll what e damn it F*&$ it has been luckily there is only listening left...

soul talk

2007-02-12T17:17:00.000-08:00

has ani 1 even have the feeling of being hurt. somehow i feel so lonely dejected and depressed. i have this feeling that gives me an uneasy feeling. somehow i wont be able to see my future, like its some dark and dim road shimmering out. im now not even sure that i will get to decide my future. this feeling that i have its just like something really bad will happen to me. i am really afraid. Even though on the exterior i may seem complicated and what ever not internally i just feel like some kind of crumbling stone. even the most strong willed of person will get scared and falter. i just wished there was som 1 i cld confide my fears my sorrows and many others. rite now i only have two frienship that i truly have and one i hold close to my heart. i feel that i do not have much left to try for som how i just truly feel that i can really show my pain. even drowning myself in music dosent help. i feel that soon i will be like som lone leaf swept out by the wind only to be crushed and left on the pavement all alone. if only som 1 could truly help me. im just suffering....

overseas trip

2007-01-25T21:18:00.000-08:00

the school trip i took 2 beijing was fun n i think i'll do it again more details to be realesed later

wad i like..

2006-11-19T19:28:00.000-08:00

i luv japanese anime espicially gundam seed destiny kira yamoto oh my gosh he's so cute ... nth 2 say leh zzzzzzzzz

pulau samuku outing

2006-10-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

whoa the sumukao landfill is way cool i mean the scenery there is great and very breezy aslo very pretty i really enjoyed the time there however i m seriously tired out due to the long bumboat ride and others the guide was kinda late however he was really fun and nice to be wif. I was so nervous cuz the nea was doing some filming and they wanted students to be interviewed i was scarded till my brains could burst out that all 4 now i seriously wanna slp really!!!zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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eoy stress over

2006-10-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

yipee exams over firstly im sori 4 not updating cuz of exams now that exams r over i think tat i can seriously lax kay who has advice bout china cuz im going overseas school trip i seriously hope so ya noe will ani body help mi by e way tis is 4 all winx fans there is going 2 bi a season 3 and a new power called enchantix look above 4 e winx clubs gerl enchantix form kay?

aquamarine comments

2006-09-10T22:56:00.000-07:00

man ppl im so sori i had not e time 2 update it ani way i think tat aquamarine is a very nice show . ani way i liked e songs and everything i mean that was all so cool and funny a cinderella story is lso veri nice haiz dunno wadda do so how ???? i mean im cluesss 2 wad i sgld update next

mei hua shou...............................

2006-08-24T20:56:00.000-07:00

i can hardly wait 2 morrow is farewell function and im so excited can hardly wait 2 go. ani way rite im m so bored and have nth 2 do so how i really dunno wad 2 do... i heard that sec 4 onli plan 2 cum at 7 2 8 . how inconsiderate ani way have ta go..

BBooooooooorrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeddddddd out

2006-08-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

man i can hardly belief it i get 2 go 2 china on a school trip hope every thing works out 4 mi yeah errr i say tat npcc is very tiring and yeah i go home so late my mum is not happi aslo she has been barking up my neck 4 who noe how long .... yeah my faves r gundam seed destiny hmmmmmm i wonder if i really have ta lead the sec 2 hopefully not really serious i m get in a difficult time how 2 get out???? will some 1 help mi?

complainsssssss

2006-08-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

hiaaaaaaaaaahhhhh yah i mean life is so not fair.... ani way wishing singapore a late happi burf day. so i m so not looking 4ward 2 sch. ya noe tat goh is like we waited 4 him tat long i most fell asleep not fair i think if he delayed ani longer i think the entire parade will fall out u noe e commander had 2 give yakan diri.haiz ani way i m glad it over.dun complain 4 now lah i guess tat all 4 now oh wait i just remembered my grand ma just came i guess tat she is kinda fun looking foward 2 playing chinese chess with her gain

boring.....

2006-07-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

great what a day... i saw a movie marathon called does the truth matter any more . i felt that it was so so any way i think that when it comes to teachers day i will not give mrs goh and ms lim and mr sim...... yyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.................................

bored out

2006-07-27T19:52:00.000-07:00

i can't believe tat we just had a fire drill n i m steaming hot.kkkkkkk so not our fault.ani way i realli do not like mrs goh i mean she so fussy and every thing better stop in here cuz sttill in sch k...

some more complains and praise

2006-07-25T06:58:00.000-07:00

yippe 2day is my burf day n i recieved many great gifts from my frenz yeah but i simply cannot stand mrs goh she is an entire fussy pot . hope fully she does not find out.... yeah i m so not looking foward to doing goh 2 morrow it is so bad , u march till ur legs r sore out . i guess i still have not recovered from it. guess how terrible a teacher can be she made mi cry and thinks its all my fault. IT IS NOT. i realli do not have the time so pls mrs goh WILL U STOP HARRESING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

complains

2006-07-24T00:38:00.000-07:00

sssssssssssoooooooooo bad why can't ani 1 take e effort 2 tell mi tat there is npcc ndp rehearsal 2day , i hate them now why can't they tell mi hate e sec 3 squad they could not tell mi .ani way 2day i veri tired from school sooooooo i would dearly like a rest 4 a while ppppppppppppllllllllssssssssssssss pls destiny gimme a BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

link

2006-07-23T21:45:00.000-07:00

click here for english blog

hi

2006-05-29T00:22:00.000-07:00

hihi this so cool